To Leap or Not to Leap

I hate that anxious feeling you get when you care about someone. I don't even know what you call the feeling but all I know is that I hate it. I hate that worrying feeling that worrying over nothing feeling. I don't understand it. I don't understand why I get so anxious. I think this is why I tried to avoid this whole situation. I have come to the conclusion that I am just no good at this. It's weird I am seriously great at anything someone throws at me, but put my heart in the mix I am like a blind bat. I am not a risk taker, aside from my spur of the moment skydiving and cliff jumping, I hate taking risks. I am so scared that I am going to get screwed over somehow. And what sucks is that every time I get this way I find myself trying to distance myself so I don't care so much. If my heart had a name I'd name her Wimp. To take a leap or not to take a leap that is the question.