Learn From the Past and On to the Future!

2010 Thank you for letting me successfully complete half of my law school journey, an awesome District Attorney Internship, the great friendships I've made, my grandma's recovery, the opportunity to transfer to Loyola, my family's love, all the crazy Vegas trips, my New York adventure, the lessons I've learned, and the strength I've gained from the hardships. 2010 you were filled with so many blessings and I wouldn't trade one moment for anything. This year has made me learn to appreciate the beautiful things in life and I am EXTREMELY excited for what this 2011 year will bring. Happy New Year Everyone and Live everyday with no regrets.


“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.”

- Edith Lovejoy Pierce

A Very Merry Christmas!

Kris Kringle gift exchange!
The cousins did our first annual Secret Santa Gift exchange! We went to Unami Burger in LA and their burgers were delish. It's amazing how lucky I am to be surrounded by such positive and beautiful women in my life. Their kindness and warmth never cease to amaze me and this Christmas I am so grateful for their company. Thank you cousins for the laughs and smiles you bring to my face and for being for me this year! I would not have been able to go through everything without your love and support.






I got my very own Egg for Christmas! He's not tall but he'll do ;) Thank you to my Secret Santa, Jacq for my Egg and sweaters you're the best!









Time to Decorate the house!!! Stockings are up and the sissy poo and I had the best idea ever! Big Stockings for big presents and little stockings for liwwle presents! [totally joking] but we still got a kick out of it!






The annual Christmas Eve Bash at the Sebastian home! Lots of food, laughs, Apples and Bananas, Taboo, pictures and FAMILY!











MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM MY FAMILY TO YOURS!


"The only rock I know that stays steady, the only institution I know that works, is the family.”

Holiday Movie Nights

Holiday Movie nights! Best way to spend time in this crazy storm. Stay Safe everyone!

Vegasssss!

Trees, Stockings, and Dancing Galore!

CHRISTMAS COOKIES!!!!! I have come to the conclusion that sugar cookies are my favorite! I was looking all over Albertsons for green and red sprinkles but you know what I found instead?!?! CHRISTMAS TREE SPRINKLES!!!!!!!!! AWESOME! I love Christmas!









Next on the Christmas Agenda, DECORATING THE PASADENA HOUSE! After the craziness of finals we finally found time to decorate the house! Look at our awesome Christmas tree! It's so pretty and it's making the house so festive! Thank you 99cent store your decorations are fatastical.









AND ya I'm not even done yet! We also decorated and hung our own personalized stalkings! I have to say I think mine looks thee best :) Merv's Half tree and Kathy's invisible Hello Kitty have nothing on my cherry looking holly!









After the fun of decorating I topped off the night with some dancinggggg! I love my cousins so much it's always a "wtf happened last night" kind of experience.

I must say I LOVE BREAK!

First Round of business: Happy Hour Celebration!

- M: "park at my work and let's walk to old town it's not that far"_ K: "(after a mile) WOW are we going to Alaska??!?"
- K:"Try this piece, there's a lot of avocado" _ M: "but I don't even like avocado"
- J: "come pick me up in downtown" _K: "ummm so see you tomorrow"
- M: "Crepes! yes it's Open!"_ Store owner: "Sorry Kitchens closed for crepes" -__-
- FLASH! M: "dang why is it so perfect?!?!"
- K: (to the waiter) "whats better tarimasu or the red velvet cheesecake?_ W: cheesecake for sure :D

Never fails, my cheeks hurt from laughing so much after hanging out with these guys.

DONEEEEEEEEE!

IsHalfWayDoneWithLawSchool SAYYYY WHATTTT?!?! Man it feels sooooo good to be done! TIME TO CELEBRATE ALL BREAKKKK! happy-hours, christmas decorating, shopping, VEGAS, gift exchanges, Ice skating, Christmas baking, New Years, movies, and PURE RELAXATION here I come!

Katy Perry - Firework

Sara Haze - Lovely

One Day

" Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself... 'How did I get through it all of that ?'"

-Anonymous


One day, I hope it all makes sense. One day, I hope I can laugh at all this. One day, just one day.

Seriously

Seriously, seriously, seriously, have a heart. Is that too much to ask? People can suck sometimes and be so hypocritical but I can't let it bog me down. It's the holidays! Appreciate what you have and what is coming your way. No looking back, no regrets, and no wasting time on people not worth your time.

The true hypocrite is the one who ceases to perceive his deception, the one who lies with sincerity. ~André Gide

Change

So after having a little conversational release last night, I feel like for the first time I'm actually confronting me, just me. There are certain people in your life that will always be there and there are people who won't, plain and simple. We never know someone until shit hits the fan. We can think we know someone and put our trust in them but in reality, we never really know them until your relationship has been tested. When a person is there through the good and the bad, when a person really knows you and still loves you, that is when you know that person was meant to stay. I'm not only talking about the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, I'm talking about every kind of relationship and the all around meaning of "love." Pushing people away is something I am very good at, but at the same time through this epic failure of a characteristic, I have learned what true love is. The "I love you even though you are acting like a jerk" kind of love and the "I'm going to be here no matter what because deep down inside I know who you are and I'm not willing to ever give that up" kind of relationship. Honestly, I would take those select few friends who have shown me this kind of relationship, over any kind of superficial-ness out there. So thank you to those who have not been here to stay because you showed me exactly what friendship/love is not about and in essence you've made me a better person.

Never Enough

Pretty sure I failed my exam Yesterday. Seriously what is the point in studying... All I do is study and I still fail!

I am dropping out of law school and being a burlesque dancer/singer. Sounds like a plan. Hopefully I'll just meet a super rich man and get married so it doesn't matter if I fail out of law school.

I just hate how It feels like no matter what I do It's never enough.

I'm Alright

I've got a little hope in my pocket, I want to share a bit with you
Just be careful that you don't drop it, but don't worry if you do
'Cause I got broken down inside me, and I might just need some help
But I will get by

And I've got demons in my history, got bone beneath my skin
But I've been taken by a mystery, yes, I've been taken in
And sometimes voices down inside me try to fight me for myself
I will get by

What have I got to live for
If there's nothing beating in my chest
What have I got to live for
When this world starts turning, it's burning me up
I'm alright

I used to think love was just a barter, second hand coincidence
What doesn't kill you just makes you harder, so I used my common sense
Keeping cold to keep my distance, ‘til you took my pride away
Now I will get by

I am not afraid, no, I am not afraid
And I will not go crazy here

I've got a little hope here in my pocket, I want to share a bit with you
So just be careful that you don't drop it, but don't worry if you do
'Cause I got voices down inside me, and I might just need some help
I will get by

What have I got to live for
If there's nothing beating in my chest
What have I got to live for
When this world starts turning, burning me up
When my heart is hurting, I'm learning the rough
When this world starts turning, it's burning me up
I'm alright

- Bebo Norman

Falling In- Lifehouse

Sleep

tossing and turning, half awake half asleep, feeling yourself think while you should be sleeping, no deep sleep, ughhhhhhh this anxiety is horrible. I can't wait to sleep tonight.

See Lawyers DO have a sense of humor!

hehe I really should be studying... but I had to share a little holiday cheer :)

<3 a future lawyer

Gimme!

GIVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
I wish I could keep a puppy in Pasadena :(

60 Seconds

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

- Anonymous

1 down 2 to Go.

Finals time has arrived! I say it like I like it right? Truth is as much as I don't like the anxiety finals give me, I actually like challenging what I know and pushing myself to the edge. Kind of morbid huh, ya I know. I've never felt this kind of drive to do work before law school. I think it may because I am deathly afraid of failing out and wasting my THOUSANDS of dollars in loan money that I'll have to eventually pay pack with interest. My finals this year are 3 weeks long, 2 this past week, 1 next week, and one the following week. I think I am consuming about 2 cups of coffee a day on average and that cannot be good for my teeth. I am going to buy some major teeth whitening magical strip thingys after finals to undue the effects of my coffee inducing habits during finals. Anyways that's my rant, I have a final in like 3 hours. Wish me luck. 1 week down and 2 to go!

King of Anything - Sara Bareilles

Dream Like New York

So many dreams come and go
We blink our eyes
Time flies by we don't know
What ever happened to those childhood years?
When we thought we could fly
We got to keep those dreams alive

And dream like New York
As high as the skyline
Aim for the stars above those city lights
I want to dream like New York
I'm running down Broadway
I got to catch the next train
I'm making my way

Race to work again today
From nine to five
I only strive to stay awake
But the child inside me
Dares to believe I still can fly
Can't let those dreams just die

I got to dream like New York
As high as the skyline
Aim for the stars above those city lights
I want to dream like New York
I'm running down Broadway
I got to catch the next train
I'm making my way

How many times have u tried and failed?
Have you watched your dreams slip away?
Well every hero falls and every soldier crawls.
And every dreamer dreams again
Got to dream again

Go on and dream like New York
As high as the skylines
Aim for the stars above those city lights
Go on and dream like New York
Run on down Broadway
Catch the next train
Go make your way

Go on and dream like NY
As high as the skylines
Aim for the stars above those city lights
You got to dream like NY
Run on down Broadway
Catch the next train
Go make your way
Go make your way
Go make your way

- Tyrone Wells

Angel

Due to the stress of finals and the long hours of studying with no social life, I didn't do anything last weekend except go to mass with my family. It was weird though, I was at mass and for some reason, I just got really teary eyed. I have been uber emotional lately due to stress and just because I'm a girl but this time it was different. I felt as if it was a good cry, not a "I'm so stressed, I'm so sad" kind of a cry but a "wow I'm ok" kind of a cry. I know it doesn't make sense, but a part of me was really relieved. Like being there at that very moment made me realize how "ok" I really am. Comfortable with just me, gives me the freedom to be me, just me.

During the Homily, the priest says a couple of things that really stuck with me. One of those things is that, when the world "Angel" was used in the readings its meaning was not definite on whether the writers meant Angel as a being from heaven or Angel as meaning an ordinary person at the right place at the right time who made an impact on your life at that very moment. Crazy how everyone in your life, good or bad, have been people at the right time and at the right place shaping how the story of your life will play out. All I know is that I am really liking this chapter :)