Change

So after having a little conversational release last night, I feel like for the first time I'm actually confronting me, just me. There are certain people in your life that will always be there and there are people who won't, plain and simple. We never know someone until shit hits the fan. We can think we know someone and put our trust in them but in reality, we never really know them until your relationship has been tested. When a person is there through the good and the bad, when a person really knows you and still loves you, that is when you know that person was meant to stay. I'm not only talking about the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, I'm talking about every kind of relationship and the all around meaning of "love." Pushing people away is something I am very good at, but at the same time through this epic failure of a characteristic, I have learned what true love is. The "I love you even though you are acting like a jerk" kind of love and the "I'm going to be here no matter what because deep down inside I know who you are and I'm not willing to ever give that up" kind of relationship. Honestly, I would take those select few friends who have shown me this kind of relationship, over any kind of superficial-ness out there. So thank you to those who have not been here to stay because you showed me exactly what friendship/love is not about and in essence you've made me a better person.