I am slowly but surely getting my old self back. Socially, I have been able to hang out with friends and make new friends along the way at my new school. I am no longer at the point where I feel like crying because I am so lost in change. My family life is also back to normal, I am talking a lot more with my parents and I feel like we have gotten even closer after I shared what was going on in my personal life with them. My parents give the best advice about life. They have been through so much in their lifetime, and sometimes as kids, we don't realize how wise our parents are.
I asked my mom 2 weeks ago, "How do I just get over it?" and she said, "you just do it." She explained that you just get over it because it is what you have to do. My mom told me she sees a lot of herself in me and she sees the same mistakes she used to make. She gave me an interesting perspective on things. My mom explained to me that shes noticed in my life that things always seem to fall into place. I have so many blessings that come my way and trials that I am experiencing now are just God's way of testing me. She said that I have always been one to be at the top and life just does always work that way. I have to take these obstacles and treat them just as that, obstacles to "get over."
No matter what bumps in the road my come in the future, now I know I will be able to handle it. For a couple of weeks I lost that focus that got me so far in life. I lost focus on what really mattered and I lost that inspiration and drive to be at the top. I cannot and will not continue down that path. I will strive harder than I ever have, I will learn from my mistakes, and I will succeed.
These are my inspirations and they will keep me focused:
- My Parents. My parents have supported me throughout my entire life. Their support and guidance will give me strength to move forward.
- My brother. My brother's memory has always made me want to be a lawyer. The violence I saw in the world, through my brother's death, made me want to fight for victims of violence and make a difference any way I could. His memory serves as a constant reminder of why I am doing the things I am doing and why I am fighting so hard in what I believe in.
- My grandma. She has inspired me in so many ways. She is the strongest woman I have ever met. After going through different stages of cancer and kemo, she never gave up. My grandma never stopped living. She fought and she is still fighting. One day I hope to be as strong as her.
- My Cousins. The love and support my cousins and sister give me push me harder each day. Their proud smiles and jokes of how I'll need to help them out when their in jail, actually push me to become that lawyer in the family.
- My friends. I have been blessed with amazing and driven friends. A lot of my friends are successful and have high goals for themselves. Nursing school, Grad Schools, CPA's, My friend's are motivated and their success only makes me want to succeed even further.
All in all,
Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
- Helen Keller
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